Sunday, 19 March 2017
Finding your level
There's a level at which you ought to be operating. You won't work well at any other stratum. You may not have the courage or the confidence to pitch yourself appropriately, and you may be fiercely frustrated with your stubborn stasis, so you are confronted with finding your fit and frequency before you can flow.
What can you do but grapple with your sense of self until you set it straight? Everything will revolve around adjusting until it slots into sync. All endeavours will push you to be who you are meant to be, despite all doubt, resistance and attachment. All experiences will edge you towards alignment.
Everything will make you edgy until you find your groove, at which point you will disappear and the music will make itself. This will be at your level.
You will take shots at it and fall short, not because you are unable to reach it but because you still can't see yourself in the right way. Your attempts are how you test yourself and the waters. They are essential experiments and experiences that grind and grow you into your fit.
That interview you go for, that article you write and send to an aspirational publication, that creative angle that comes to you spontaneously and inspires you to see and take a gap that opens up in front of you...
The universe and your higher self are conspiring to let you prove yourself. You are by far the toughest critic to overcome. It takes all you have, and it takes surrender to the same degree. You cannot force it and you cannot give up on it but you have to go through both repeatedly before you find it.
You can't just fake it either. Your level will elude you at every turn yet await you wherever you look. If you are sincere, you will go through hell but you will eventually shift into place.
It will be surprising and profound, and it will be what you have always known. It will be what you have been looking for finally finding you. It will being a whole heartfelt heave of happy health.
It will be worth every ounce of effort and release. It will be on the level and it will be your home.
Then you can take it up.